Last week, I had my first mammogram. The facility was very nice, the employees very friendly, and the procedure much quicker than I was expecting, and I was on my merry way.

And then I got the results, which said that they found something that requires additional diagnostic imaging…but not for almost three weeks.

This is an uncomfortable place for me, hanging in the balance. Part of me wishes they could have gotten me in immediately so I could get the imaging done and just find out what, if anything, I’m dealing with. The other part of me would like time to stand still so that the date of the additional imaging would never arrive. I feel like for the next few weeks, I’m living with one foot on either side of a doorway.

I don’t know what will happen. I’ve been told that it’s very common to require additional imaging. I’ve also been told that it’s a good sign that they didn’t rush me back in; that they felt it could wait several weeks. But I’m also realistic enough to know that nothing is certain, that some people do get bad results, and that there’s no specific reason one of those people couldn’t be me. But in the meantime, I’m standing on the threshold, in the in-between, just waiting and wondering what will happen next.